I remember when I got the devastating news in March of this year (2026 )that Apollo had bone cancer. We were in the Vet office waiting for his xray to come back. I thought it was just going to be a sprain, tear, something that with rest and medication he’d be back to normal.

But whenever they told us it was bone cancer, my heart dropped. I knew what that meant. The inevitable of him passing away soon. They gave us 4-6 months if we just managed and didn’t do anything and then only 6-8 months if we amputated and did chemo etc. I knew in that moment that he DID NOT want the amputation and I was also not going to put him through that.

And so what did I do? I tried other ways to heal him. Because being in this work (understanding energy) for the last two years I knew that each physical symptom we and pets experienced started out as a thought + belief that started with me.

So I went to work on healing the ROOT cause of what had happened to him and then started getting to work on the physical side. Which was home cooked meals, holistic approaches, supplements, detoxes, you name it! I tried it.

From March - May I fell into a depression.

• Doing everything I could to keep him here.

• Cooking his food first before taking care of myself.

• Driving him an hour once a week to a holistic vet.

• Being exhausted. Not wanting to do anything for myself.

• I stopped finding the joy in everything.

I thought …

• I couldn’t do life without him.

• He needed to be with me to help others heal their pets.

• He was suppose to come with me to the next chapter in my life

But he and the universe had other plans.

3 months after we found out he had bone cancer I found out I was pregnant.

Once I found this out the pieces started to fall into place about why this was all happening.

He was creating space for a new chapter in my life.

Once I found out this I realized that I can’t do this to myself any longer and needed to get myself out. For myself, my baby and Apollo. I knew he didn’t like me feeling the way I was feeling at the time.

And so I started to pull myself out.

I started using my intuition and the tools I knew that would help me heal myself from all of this heavy emotion.

I still grieved and let myself feel what I was feeling but I didn’t remain stuck in it.

It was through these emotions I was feeling that helped me get out of the trenches faster.

• The guilt about not doing enough

• The guilt about it not being the way I wanted his life to end

• The shame in not doing more for him even with all of this knowledge that I have for him

And now?

I feel 10 times better than I did two months ago and it wouldn’t have happened like this if I didn’t put in the work in healing myself. I would have still been in misery, guilt, shame, depression.

And me staying in that heavy emotion, would have actually made my life even worse.

• I would have lost more money

• I would have more than likely lost my job

• My family life would have been trashcan dumpster vibes.

• My relationship would have been trash

• And my health wouldn’t be where it is now and that’s especially important now since I am currently 5 months pregnant.

I started to finally heal and understand what this was all teaching me and now I’m teaching you so you don’t have to sit in that misery longer than you need to.

Yes grief is a necessary part of processing but knowing when to come out and choosing to stay in it makes a difference on your life.